Worse Than I've Dreamed

"For years my list
remained unchanged:  I fear
the dark of night,
hide from the burning

sun, and hate our mean fate."

I have a list
of things I dread;
I keep it tucked
in folds of grey,

fear and chaos in my brain.

For years my list
remained unchanged:  I fear
the dark of night,
hide from the burning

sun, and hate our mean fate.

In the darkest moments
my list gives peace;
no harm is worse
than what I've dreamed.

When you died I lined out

one and added two
I had no reason
to fear before, must
keep the chaos contained.
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The Collected Chaff, v. 1.0