Maudlin Meditations

"The world continues,
so I have to change, and you
remain the same; I have lost my
co-pilot and
the world has
lost
a friend.

So,
I seek out reasons to
be grateful for life."

I don't
have "happy"
days anymore, only
days in which
I make it back to bed
after sixteen
waking hours
with no emotional trauma.

A sleepless, feverish night allows
the sorrow
of five months to escape in an oozing
eruption of sobbing, weeping,
and whimpering.

What do I do
to make you stay real and complete
in my mind?  Does the pain
come from remembering more
or less?

The world continues,
so I have to change, and you
remain the same; I have lost my
co-pilot and
the world has
lost
a friend.

So,
I seek out reasons to
be grateful for life.
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The Collected Chaff, v. 1.0