Expecting It

...a series of nervous moments in which past pain
becomes part of a
present fear...

I
will not forget
but I am meant to forgive,
however much a wound keeps
getting
reopened.

Mother,
you aren't

supposed to
play mind games

or

treat your children
like high school friends.

Father,
you aren’t

supposed to
bring war home

or

do evil things
that cause me harm.

This life of simply expecting

it
(a series of nervous moments
in which past pain
becomes part of a
present fear)

is not
what dreams are made of.
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The Collected Chaff, v. 1.0