Fierce Flawless
by Ani DiFranco
she was cuffed
to the truth like the truth was a chair 1
bright interrogation
light in her eyes 2
her conscience lit a cigarette and just stood
there 3
waiting for her to crack 4
waiting for her to cry 5
his
face scampered through her mind 6
like a roach across a wall 7
it
made her heart soar 8
it made her skin crawl 9
they said,
we got this confession we just need for you to sign 10
why don't
you just cooperate and make this easier on us all 11
there
was light and then there was darkness 12
but there was no line
between 13
and asking her heart for guidance 14
was like
pleading with a machine 15
cuz joy, it has its own justice 16
and
dreams are languid and lawless 17
and everything bows to beauty
18
when it is fierce 19
and when it is flawless 20
on
the table were two ziploc baggies 21
containing her eyes and her
smile 22
they said, we're keeping these as evidence 23
'til
this thing goes to trial 24
meanwhile anguish was fingering solace
25
in another room down the hall 26
both were love's
accomplices 27
but solace took the fall 28
now
look at her book of days 29
it's the same on every page 30
and
she's got a little tin cup with her heart in it 31
to bang along
the bars on her rib cage 32
bang along the bars of her rib cage 33
I
believe that there comes a point in a person's live, or maybe there are
several points, in which he or she must decide to either be part of the
world as it is or try to change it in some way. Even in America where
we have an ongoing fascination with the outlaw and the outsider a person
who tries to change things is at a disadvantage. Being different is
rewarded as long as it isn't too different. At a very early age Ani
DiFranco decided to try to change the world. And she certainly is
different.
I had heard of Ani DiFranco over a year ago
and I am certain that I have heard her music before but it is only in
the last few months that I really began listening to her music. I am now
continuing to explore her music because I realize that not only is it
good music, it is good poetry. The recent release of Reckoning/Reveling,
DiFranco's most recent work, coincided with the assignment of this
paper. So I am using this paper to examine one of the songs from this
CD. This paper is a little different for me because I first analyze the
song as a poem. I then listened to the song and compare my
interpretation to the song interpretation.
DiFranco was
born in Buffalo, NY in 1970. She grew up surrounded by music and at the
age of nine she was playing in bars. By 15 she was writing her own
songs. By 1998 she had produced 11 records on her own under her label
Righteous Babe Records. She turned down several offers at record
contracts with major and independent labels. She is still turning out
her own records and has also produced records for other musicians under
her label.
DiFranco's work takes in a lot of the
landscape of contemporary America. She comments on relationships,
mainly, but there is also a strong commentary on government, big
business, and the American personality. "Fierce Flawless" is on the
Revelling CD in DiFranco's most recent collection. By analyzing it first
as a poem and then listening to the song I found that DiFranco's
interpretation of the poem is different or she is trying to make a
broader social comment. My expectation (based on my reading of the poem)
was for the song to be low key and melancholy. It is anything except
that.
As a poem "Fierce Flawless" consists of 33 lines
in four stanzas. The form is free verse but there are occasionally
points in which a line or line fragment is repeated. The poem tells a
story from the third person omniscient perspective. The poem begins with
the image of a woman handcuffed to a chair in police interrogation
style. The poem then ventures inside this woman's thoughts. She thinks
about the way joy works. The police interrogation theme continues with
the description of the woman's eyes and smile in bags on the table as
"evidence." The woman winds up in prison with "a little tin cup with her
heart in it."
Lines one through three set the scene.
An unidentified woman is described as "cuffed to the truth like the
truth was a chair." And the interrogator is her conscience. The
description of the truth is complicated. It is a chair so it supports
the woman but she is also tied to it so it restricts her. What is "the
truth?" A very beneficial way to read this poem is to define the truth
as the statements in lines 18-20. The truth is that beauty is power.
Reading this poem with that definition of "truth" allows the rest of the
poem to be read as a meditation on how people use and hurt each other
with beauty.
The interrogator (her conscience) waits
for her to "crack" and "cry" as she sees "his" face crawl across the
wall in the form of a roach that makes her "heart soar" and her "skin
crawl" (lines 4-9). These lines demonstrate how the woman has been hurt
by beauty. When she remembers a man that can easily be assumed to be an
ex-boyfriend his face is like a roach. But this memory doesn't simply
repulse her it makes her heart soar. She is drawn to his beauty. But her
skin still crawls because he is, after all, a roach
And
"they said, we got this confession we just need for you to sign / why
don't you just cooperate and make this easier on us all" (lines 10-11).
Her conscience and the memory of this man want her to admit to being
used by beauty. The next stanza (lines 12-20) is an interior monologue
of the woman while she reads the confession. Lines 12-13 are a
corruption of the Biblical description of the creation. In the Bible God
creates light and dark and separates them into night and day. Here
there is light and dark but there is no separation. These lines are
probably a reference to a belief that it is difficult to determine right
from wrong. Is it right to be so tied to beauty? The woman asks her
heart and finds that it is only a "machine" (lines 14-15).
It is
at this point that we are given the "truth." Lines 16-20 present the
truth indicated above about beauty as well as some truths about joy and
dreams.
Cuz joy, it has its own justice
and
dreams are languid and lawless
and everything bows to beauty
when
it is fierce
and when it is flawless
These lines
present truth in what they say about joy, dreams and beauty. And they
also work on some fundamental free verse truths. The repetition of words
and letters (alliteration) are important elements. And as a confession
these lines are powerful. If the woman signs the confession, she can
have no dreams, she can have no joy and she will be the puppet of
beauty.
This also isn't DiFranco's only song in which she
discusses the importance of beauty and joy. Often beauty is presented as
a dichotomy.
but then what kind of scale
compares
the weight of two beauties
the gravity of duties
or the
ground speed of joy (from "School Night")
In these
lines the conclusion is that it is impossible to measure beauty. This
adds to the current reading of "Fierce Flawless" because it shows that
DiFranco's view of beauty isn't flat. She understands the complexity
behind physical beauty. And these lines also further our understanding
of the way DiFranco understands joy.
Indeed, the
accusation is that she has already been used by beauty just as she has
used beauty. "On the table were two ziploc baggies / containing her eyes
and her smile" (lines 21-22). Her eyes and her smile are being kept as
evidence "till this thing goes to trial." The initial reaction to this
image is one of disgust. It is important to remember that this whole
poem is going on in the mind of the speaker. What is important is the
symbolic significance of her eyes and smile being used as evidence. The
eyes and smile would be symbols of her beauty as well as her reaction to
beauty. But the case is really out of her hands anyway.
Lines
25-28 develop the relationship between anguish, solace and love.
Anguish and solace are described as "love's accomplices." But anguish
"was fingering solace" and "solace took the fall." Anguish "fingering"
solace is a reference again to the interrogation scene. Anguish said
that solace was guilty. I don't think that the sexual definition of
"fingering" (i.e. pleasing sexually with the finger) is relevant but
perhaps it does. Another way to view these lines is that anguish and
love cancel each other out; this leaves behind only solace.
The
last stanza (lines 29-33) ends with the woman in jail. She was judged
and found guilty. "Now look at her book of days / its the same on every
page" (lines 29-30). As each person dies and enters heaven, according to
Christian myth, the "book of days" is consulted to see how each person
lived his or her life in order to determine if he or she should be
admitted to heaven. But this woman's pages are all the same. They are
all covered with the downfall of beauty. But her heart protests by
banging against her rib cage. The implication is that the "machine," as
the heart was described earlier, cannot do anything about this prison.
DiFranco
does a lot with her heart. In this song it winds up in a tin cup. In
another song it winds up on a raft.
and my little pink
heart
is on its little brown raft
floating out to sea (from
"Grey")
This song is much more of an emotional song
than "Fierce Flawless." Yet the ideas really relate. The description of
her heart at sea is made early in the song. So when the song continues
to say:
I've got everything i want and still i want
more
maybe some tiny shiny key
will wash up on the shore
The
only thing we know to be at sea is her heart. It can be supposed that
the key is her heart. The heart then takes on increased significance
than just being "a machine" in "Fierce Flawless." Her heart in a tin cup
begging for release is really her way out. Continuing with the idea of
beauty as a cage the heart seems to represent the opposite of beauty.
TRUTH. That is being true to your emotions and your feelings.
This
idea of truth works equally well in the first lines of "Fierce
Flawless." The woman cannot get away from the fact that she has the
choice of either worshipping beauty or being true to herself. Either way
some part of herself will be lost. The prison in the end of this song
then is being unable to decide.
"Fierce Flawless" as a
song is presented with a steady wood block beat (like a heart) and an
upbeat repeated guitar picking. At the line "make this easier on us all"
the music becomes louder and a trumpet joins in. The song seems very
festive. There are even upbeat oboe and bass guitar solos. This suggests
that I've read this poem in a very different way from DiFranco. One
thing that really stands out while listening to this song is the
repetition of the words "fierce" and "flawless" to the point of
annoyance.
I realized at this that in my explication of
this song I didn't go into the significance of these two words. Again
beauty is presented as a dichotomy. What does it mean for beauty to be
fierce and flawless? Well, flawless is an easy enough state for us to
understand even though we have no examples of perfect physical beauty.
But what is truly flawless beauty comes from ideas. Fierce is defined as
having a violent or cruel nature as of an animal. So it makes much more
sense to talk about the physical aspects of beauty as being fierce.
With
these ideas about beauty there is a slightly different way to read the
poem. A person has two sides: animal and spiritual. Animal beauty can be
fierce but only spiritual beauty can be flawless. Both are powerful.
And the woman in the song is "tied to the truth" that she is only
physically beautiful as evidenced in her eyes and smile.
By
reading Ani DiFranco's "Fierce Flawless" first as a poem and then
viewing it as a song it is possible to understand it in two very
different ways. The conclusions are similar but distinct. As a poem
beauty can be seen as a tool used by and on people. While the emphasis
on the ideas of "fierce beauty" and "flawless beauty" help us to
understand the song as a discussion of the types of beauty a person can
achieve. Either way the woman is stuck in a prison in the end of the
song. But in one she can never get out while in the later she must grow
to get out.
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